; goodnight and go

IMAGINE REACHING HOME AT 7AM, TIRED OUT, ONLY TO FIND YOUR HOUSEDOOR BOLTED. THEN IMAGINE, YOUR RELIEF UPON FINALLY ENTERING THE HOUSE, ONLY TO FIND YOUR ROOMDOOR LOCKED.

Yes. And then opening your roomdoor to find two couples, one your cousin and her boyfriend and the other your brother and his girlfriend fast asleep. -.-

Does nobody have any consideration for my feelings anymore?!

Okay, digressing from whinings and grumblings.

I was almost late for Lovewrecked again. Thanks to the uncle who sells me indo cigs la! Budget! Amagawd he's so tiko it's almost amusing if not highly.. disgusting. He usually sees me in tshirts and shorts, and yeah today with makeup on and everything on he was GRABBING MY ARM AND ASKING ME TO HANG OUT WITH HIM, EVEN SUGGESTING 1 OR 2 AM OUTINGS OMG. This from a balding man hitting his 70s? -_-

The peak hour increase in pricetags for cabs are seriously ruining their business. Fuck the govt. And I can't stand those no-smoking area laws. Hello, we smokers have rights too, we're paying good money to smoke at places okay? Like Swensens which I went after Night Safari with Cw Tony and this girl name Sherrie who turned out to have a MULLUN mutual friends as I do, being one of my old cliques. Hahaha I can't believe I've actually heard about her and even seen her log with my ex la! And in case you guys are wondering why I read the logs of my ex, that's cos he READS EVERYONE OF MINE. I respect privacy of the rest of my ex-es okay?! (:

Night Safari was so fun. LOVE THE LEOPARDS. You guys should try it. Romantic like most people thought though? How can it be when I went with Cw. LOL. Okay sorry wife. He was good company la. Just not.. romantic. LOL.

And after everything I went over to his place to watch videos. Alot like love was good. Lotsa meaningful quotes. Like one I found particularly close to heart. Don't, you'll ruin it. Something like. Don't ask, don't talk about it, don't think too much. Just follow your heart and do whatever feels right at the moment. Oh and yeah if some moron tries to shoot you with the Kissing a smoker is like licking an asstray shit, just kick his/her ass with a. How about screwing one? HAHAHA.

Oh and the girl I met is in a relationshipy situation.. which I find. Hmm. She calls it Good friends, with benefits. Good for you if you know what I mean. Haha! I used to dig those kinda stuff. But like she said and what I learnt, once real feelings come into the picture, one's gonna get screwed so bad.

I guess I grew outta them? Now it's all or nothing for me. I think. Must be Erik and Michelle's influence. I'm seeking true love! HAHAHA.

For the SLIGHTEST moment I thought myself attracted to him. But rather than moving too far for my own good, for once I resisted the instincts and backed off. Rather than ruining what might turn out a great friendship. Which I think is a pretty smart move. And don't ask me who la. Lol. If you know, good for you. And for once, people, you can't bug me or question my behaviour cos I DID NOTHING! HAHAHA!

I know this, Imma addict for dramatics, I confuse the two for love.

Listening to my head is right. Playing safe feels good. Rather than rushing into forbidden unknown territory. I mean, hey I'm unsure of how I feel. In the past I would jus go straight for the kill, and see how things unfold. Whether it's platonic, attraction or something else. But recently, I've this nagging feeling anything other than pure unadulterated friendship for me will just turn out bad and stupid. Ah well. I yearn for the sneaky thing called love, but I guess I'm become too afraid, or maybe too cynical.

Whatever makes me happy, right? (:

Sorry for the twitish stuff. I'm too tired to blog properly.

I finished typing this at 8+am but my stupid comp died on me.