; silence

Two blows in one day.

The good part was meeting Sis. Sam. Daniel. Matt.

Yknow, all I ever wanted was your forgiveness and your friendship once more. Nothing else. But you? You had to bitch about me to the world, then act all nonchalant and indifferent in front of me. But when I saw your eyes, somehow you seemed to care. What's wrong with you? A part of me wants to ask you, what exactly was it that aroused such bitterness and hatred from you. Maybe someone told you a lie? And you said you knew me for a long time. Well before your friends came in, were there any conflicts ever between us for two whole years? No. Another part scoffs and thinks, you're not worthy of a minute of my time. But like Mich said with shocked sympathy at your behaviour, it's history now. I've done everything I could to salvage this friendship. I was the only one who never talked shit behind you, who was on your side no matter what, but this is the last straw. Just don't look back and habour regrets. Don't regret this.

And you. Thank you for playing me. Thanks a whole bunch. In all honesty, I don't blame you cos I knew what I was getting myself into from the start. But it's still painful somehow. I wish you were a different person. I wasn't just attracted to you, I liked you. Different species collide and shit happens. Would things have changed if I was a twit? Maybe iF ii taLkeed liIke dIsh worxx`? If I belonged to the world you knew and understood? Still, I like who I am and I wouldn't change myself to people I and my whole bunch of friends as a matter of fact mock and laugh at.

Sigh. Yknow, people, it's not that I don't wanna settle down and live good ol' couple days. I too am tired of one offs and flings. But I just can't seem to bump into the right person. And until then, quotes Mich and Cw,

I'm single, and ready to mingle. (: