Parents.. sometimes I really suspect they have this morbidly accurate sixth sense when it comes to their kids. Like, the moment I gave in to craving and held a cig to my mouth, my mom startled me with a loud PSTTT and a half grumpy half accusatory look on her face, as if I said anything about tobacco abstinence or like she doesn't wake up early in the morning anyways.
Omg. Tired of my winamp playlist, I decided to check out P10 for songs and can you believe it Paris Hilton's rubbish track made it to 2006's top100. -_- Never trust Singaporeans for their eardrums, I tell you.
All's good with the bf. He's being so nice that it feels a lil scary, really. Making amends probably, not that I'm ungrateful about that. I've always had this.. unfair mentality, that he doesn't really love me, and I, him, that we're staying together more out of.. habit, and cos we're really comfortable and with each other, and the companionship perhaps but I think I'm wrong, we do love each other, just that our relationship's more like a husband and a wife, then boyfriend and girlfriend, if you get my drift. I mean, we practically live together after all, for more than half a year.
Jojo was Miss TeenUSA? Omg too.
The body's a bitch these days. I feel so.. whiny complaining about it all the time but seriously. Nausea outta nowhere, insomnia and severe aches. Don't know what's wrong with me.
Oh and to always be on the safe side, do remember condoms, cos it's not worth the worrying. And a lil food for thought, the boyfriend was like 'hey yknow how we get all relieved and happy that we never get pregnant, and then when we're planning for a family and we realise *gasp there's a problem with us and we CAN'T get pregnant, what would you do?'
Visiting the brother later, I should get an hour's rest even if I can't sleep so. Laters.
Sunday, May 06, 2007
Saturday, May 05, 2007
; wo yao wei ni jie yan
I needed to burp so desperately, was at the point of muttering 'I will give two bucks to burp right now' and stalking up and down the living room trying to walk the burp right out. And I managed that while I was fiddling with the Activemeter codes, didn't seem to have the 'write vibe' without it.. must be some lil narcissistic fragment of myself I was unaware of o.o
I have terrible bodyaches, shoulder more than anything else and though I can't deny my atrocious body posture's probably contributes to at least half the reason why.. I think (really think, not just the infamous self pity kicking in) there's something wrong with my body. Internal wise. Too much popping of the happy pills couple of years back, and those 'omgwtfbbq I wanna die right now' childish frequency I've been constantly on and off for.. 4 years?
So whiny I know. So caught up in my little troubles that I didn't even blog about the Cho Seung-Hui tragedy. Especially after reading those lil.. OKAY I MUST BE TIRED MY VOCAB SEEMS REALLY DOWN.. 'passages' of those murdered so dreadfully. I would have to be non human to write, I ended up weeping in front of the computer screen with my maid and dog looking on curiously.
I want to be independent. To be a strong, free woman. But I can't. Everytime I think I'm getting closer those paranoia cells jump in. Anxiety, they called it. Literally trembling, my heartbeat racing and my breathing harder. Until the incident whatever it was blows over.
Okay whatever I don't feel like elaborating. The sky's gorgeous. Purplish with pinkish orange layered over it, the faintest shade of beige, pale, pale pale pink merging so naturally with pale, pale pale blue. Ad the clouds are just.. there, like ornaments on a christmas tree. I'm not a big.. daytime person you know, being half a vampire and all that but hmm. I like the sky as it is now, I really like it.
/edit Okay I HAVE to add this, I looked away for like two seconds to post this entry up and WOW the sky's more blue and beige now. Amazing. I will stare at the sky whenever I have nothing better to do from now on.
I have terrible bodyaches, shoulder more than anything else and though I can't deny my atrocious body posture's probably contributes to at least half the reason why.. I think (really think, not just the infamous self pity kicking in) there's something wrong with my body. Internal wise. Too much popping of the happy pills couple of years back, and those 'omgwtfbbq I wanna die right now' childish frequency I've been constantly on and off for.. 4 years?
So whiny I know. So caught up in my little troubles that I didn't even blog about the Cho Seung-Hui tragedy. Especially after reading those lil.. OKAY I MUST BE TIRED MY VOCAB SEEMS REALLY DOWN.. 'passages' of those murdered so dreadfully. I would have to be non human to write, I ended up weeping in front of the computer screen with my maid and dog looking on curiously.
I want to be independent. To be a strong, free woman. But I can't. Everytime I think I'm getting closer those paranoia cells jump in. Anxiety, they called it. Literally trembling, my heartbeat racing and my breathing harder. Until the incident whatever it was blows over.
Okay whatever I don't feel like elaborating. The sky's gorgeous. Purplish with pinkish orange layered over it, the faintest shade of beige, pale, pale pale pink merging so naturally with pale, pale pale blue. Ad the clouds are just.. there, like ornaments on a christmas tree. I'm not a big.. daytime person you know, being half a vampire and all that but hmm. I like the sky as it is now, I really like it.
/edit Okay I HAVE to add this, I looked away for like two seconds to post this entry up and WOW the sky's more blue and beige now. Amazing. I will stare at the sky whenever I have nothing better to do from now on.
Tuesday, May 01, 2007
; sleepy
Fighting to keep my eyes open, but I have to voice this out before it stifles my breathing.
AHLIANS THESE DAYS CAN WRITE!
Decently too. I am amazed, no sarcasm intended.
AHLIANS THESE DAYS CAN WRITE!
Decently too. I am amazed, no sarcasm intended.
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