If you get there before I do, don't give up on me. I'll meet you when my chores are through, I don't know how long I'll be. But I'm not gonna let you down, just wait and see. And between now and then till I see you again I'll be loving you. Love me. Between now and then till I see you again I'll be loving you, love, Me.
Jovina, Shianne, Jenson, Jovan, Beebee.
Family.
Nobody will be able to fully comprehend my loss, my anguish from being torn justifiably, but still, cruelly from the person I love most in the world, my younger brother Jenson. One week apart seems like an entire lifetime.
Granted, on a typical day we would see each other for merely a matter of hours, about 10pm? when he returns home due to probation, but talk not about time as figures, hours and minutes, but quality time. Teasing banter, little squabbles, and when the need arises, heart to heart talks.
He lost weight. And his tears fell as freely as my own. "I only want my family", this simple sentence will haunt my nights until the next visit, same day, same time.
I miss him so much it's a constant ache in my heart that never really goes away.
Wednesday, December 06, 2006
Monday, December 04, 2006
Sunday, December 03, 2006
; gone
I really, really detest drama in my life. I wonder what I use to crave from it. The momentarily peaks punctured by numerous dips? Bah.
If life can go on as smooth as.. I don't know, silk? A straight line, I couldn't ask for more.
I feel like I'm missing out on shitloads of stuff. But Baby makes me happy. Only when we part do I realise I'm so damn hooked onto him I scare myself sometimes.
Life's a bore. I half wish I'm leaving as planned this year. One more year in bleak and dreary Singapore.. The usual Christmas excitement is contrasting so drastically with my dullish lifestyle, making it seem more monotonous then usual.
Ah my baby's so cute I have a really retarded picture of him in my phone. Heehee. Which reminds me. I got a new phone with a screwed up memory card and NO CABLE.
Sucker. And I damaged the top of the phone within TWO DAYS. And the time is screwed. If you text me at 16:00 it shows 8:00. Bloody retardish.
Life is sucha fun sucker. Hate hate hate.
I do realise I'm being whiny and irritating. Hmph.
If life can go on as smooth as.. I don't know, silk? A straight line, I couldn't ask for more.
I feel like I'm missing out on shitloads of stuff. But Baby makes me happy. Only when we part do I realise I'm so damn hooked onto him I scare myself sometimes.
Life's a bore. I half wish I'm leaving as planned this year. One more year in bleak and dreary Singapore.. The usual Christmas excitement is contrasting so drastically with my dullish lifestyle, making it seem more monotonous then usual.
Ah my baby's so cute I have a really retarded picture of him in my phone. Heehee. Which reminds me. I got a new phone with a screwed up memory card and NO CABLE.
Sucker. And I damaged the top of the phone within TWO DAYS. And the time is screwed. If you text me at 16:00 it shows 8:00. Bloody retardish.
Life is sucha fun sucker. Hate hate hate.
I do realise I'm being whiny and irritating. Hmph.
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