; fighting fish

I've slept exactly 3 hours, and that's only with the help of mild sleeping pills for the past 3 days. The scary thing is, I'm not in the least tired.

Bryan's 27th birthday today. Fun. Too bad Nick messed up and booked the biggest room available, just at the wrong outlet. Haha!

I've such a wonderful family. Daddy held my hand earlier. It felt.. weird. But sweet. I felt like a little girl again, content in the embrace of her blood. And my cuz and I realised we were more than sisters, we're practically best friends! :)

I've been lucky all my life. There's always someone out there, looking out for me. I knew that when Lydia gave me the bigger half of the cookie, when Raes never forgets to send me birthday cards every year from the US, when Vic and I had the Amazing Race from Jurong, Changi Prison, to Lavender's immigration to bid Daniel farewell after his release, when Mich laid me on her lap when I was drunk and vomitting like a Merlion, when Wanwin forgave my hurtful, nasty words the moment I called her, crying, when my cousin worries about my lack of appetite and sleep.

All I need now is to learn to trust my boyfriend 100% and not only forgive, but forget his mistakes that occured more than half a year ago.

Easier said than done, but I'm trying. I'm trying.