; invisible man

Sometimes I'm really clueless to feelings of others, and that makes me feel really, really bad. Like when Keith said 'nah just surprised by the conversation cos these days you act like you can't be bothered or you're too good or something' and Sel was like 'just thought you'll have something to ask cos it's not like you to talk to me'.

=( This from two former close/good friends! I seriously had no idea. But I'm pretty damn sure they're not the only two.

Sorry for alienating all you guys, you know I love you ^^ If you don't then I'm telling you now!

Oh and the reason for this post is cos I wanna share this joke.

Cos in the Home, the racial bigotry is suffocating, and that's saying something considering the fact that my brother having lived in Jurong (I think they populate half of the west) for the past 3 years have tons of bosom Malay buddies.

But after hearing the horror tales from the Home, can you blame the Chinese and Indians (ALLIANCED) ? Back in 04 and 05 70% of the occupants were Malays. So they controlled the Home politics. (You won't miss politics anywhere honey) New boys usually have it bad. It's a tradition, to keep them in check. Seniority speaks volumes in there. Seniority in terms of 'how long you've been there'. You don't mess with old boys. But new chinese/indian boys who've done nothing except be deemed to have a fucked up face by the Malays suffer hell.

Eat shit or else get your teeth smashed. Four gone. Wanna eat. No? Lets see how many teeth you have left then. Face smashed onto grills. Hands stomped on by bed poles. Be a dog and keep watch for nothing, NOTHING!, make sure you respond when I shout hey or you're dead tomorrow. Be a punching bag.

And when I mildly suggested 'why not tell the sir?' the brother was OUTRAGED. 'What, be a snitch? No way anyone will let down their own skin.'

Yeah, it's all skin and clothes there. Skin you know what I mean, clothes refer to gang. Ever heard of the term 'Eh I wanna hang shirt already?' Get it now?

I was against my bro calling Malays dogs and all but I don't know, I've to fight to suppress the ill feeling I now harbor against them myself. Not that I'm racist, but how can you help it? Eh if any of you wanna be funny and call police say I making racist comments all, I'm not okay, I'm telling it as it is. Just hope the sirs won't be so blind and keep a closer eye on the boys these days.

So anyway. The joke I promised.

You know how people smuggle stuff into the boys' home? The typical hiding in underwear and shoes and nonsense? HAHA that's old school man. The latest trend? SHOVE IT UP YOUR ASS. No kidding. The Malays wrap up the fags in a thin sheet of paper or something (I think anghoon la, thinner can shove more) and shove them up their asses! Not one. Maybe 3 or 4! Then they shit it out and out it comes. Mother fucking hell seriously. Damn ingenious, damn sick.