; my heroine

the drugs being to peak, a smile of joy arrives in me.
but sedation changes to panic and nausea,
and breath starts to shorten
and heartbeats pound softer
you won't try to save me!
you just want to hurt me and leave me desperate!

you taught my heart, a sense i never knew i had.
i can forget, the times that i was
lost and depressed from the awful truth.
how do you do that?
you're my heroine.

you won't leave me alone!
chisel my heart out of stone, i give in everything.

You won't leave me alone!
Chisel my heart out of stone, I give in everytime.

i bet you laugh at the thought of me thinking for myself.
i bet you believe that i'm better off with you than someone else.
your face arrives again, all hope i had becomes surreal.
but under your covers, more torture than pleasure
and just past your lips there's more anger than laughter.
not now or forever will i ever change you,
i know that to go on, i'll break you my habit!

i'll save myself!