; i won't see you tonight

Whatever happened to Moms who bake you cookies, tell you you're the sweetest little angel fallen from the heavens, or plain and simple, MIND THEIR OWN BEESWAX?

Mine is a major pain in the neck lately.

I haven't really forgiven her for being the first AND she will be the last, I can assure you, to give me a slap and I am only keeping my cool because she has an operation scheduled on Friday and I don't really want her to burst a boob or something.

PAH!

; -

The boyfriend has TWO outfields this week. I think that was why he decided to retrieved companionship of the PSP for me, guess he thought I might be lonely?

BBDC on Weds & Thurs, wish me luck!

Three days down and I'm still stuck with a nasty cold. As I was typing this very sentence in fact, I simultaneously sneezed and had to fetch a piece of tissue. The poor area below my nose above my lip is bruised from all the friction.

Bernice's birthday yesterday, hoped she had a good one, everyone deserves a memorable if not semi-non forgettable 18th. Reminder to self: MUST stop procrastinating and go for driving lessons, otherwise I'll probably be the last bugger to get my license.

Operation saving money is not going too well. I go a little crazy at bookstores. And ordering food.

And I can't think of anything else to say, the cough syrup's addled my brain. Hey that rhymes. Now what did those SAS boys use to call cough syrup again? Oh yeah. Cheap thrills. Haha. I so remember Alwin gulping down an entire bottle on a certain fateful day a year back at ToaPayoh Mac.

Zipadeedoodah for now. Zipadeeday!

; over the rainbow

It's a tad annoying how everyone's msn works pretty much fine on my computer but mine jams up everytime I type two sentences. I've reformatted the bloody thing twice and NA. DA. I wonder if it's because I have 15 groups. *shrugs*

Fully utilising MSN functions should be good. I can't compressed it all.. damn. Surprise! It screws up again! Bah, anyway, prioritising, there's * for me and Chwee, Family, Serangoon garden south, Xinmin, Huayi, St francis, St andrews, 86 86, 88, Volleyball, Gardens, Jurong, Males, Females, and a teeny pile of people I can't be bothered to sort out just yet. Gotta get down to deleting, I think having 300+ people is the problem, but if I have to eradicate people I know and don't talk to right now, that's probably two thirds my list.

Bored of my template, and too lazy to create a fresh piece (by that I mean rip off blogskins dot com and do some minor html editing) so you're stuck with this for the moment. Let us hope no creepy self-obsessed people come on all accusatory-like whining that I have a similar template to theirs - hello, default remember?

Poker championship on the PSP is the sex (LOL I know, I think it ridiculous that 15 year olds are using that phrase, what would they know of sex great sex?) And I beat my brother in Baccarrat earlier. 33.50 bucks but I secretly left 20 bucks in his wallet. Toto 3 million tonight!

Just going to explain my Quit Smoking on Monday theory to Yappie before I run off. Later!

; breathe again

I just wanna breathe again
Learn to face the joy and pain
Discover how to
Laugh a little
Cry a little
Live a little more.

I just wanna face today
Forget about the worst of yesterday
Maybe if I
Hope a little
Try a little more


I know I'm hopelessly outdated but Dou Yu (The Outsiders) is seriously a must watch drama series with a good plot but slightly mediocre acting.

; outsiders

We humans can easily get used to every single thing.

Take this for an example. The toilet stinks so badly, but there's only one and you really need to poop. So you hold your breath and step in. The poop takes forever. Hey! By the time you're done and flushed, the toilet doesn't seem to smell at all.

See?

That's why when the same shit keeps occurring, it hurts lesser and lesser. But this weary resignation hurts me more than the deed itself.

; i live in toa payoh

My uncle gave me a huge grin and went 'Louis Vuitton, my friend!', pointing at my bag with the dustbag lying on top of it. Hahaha. I forgot my aunts and her husband were the original LV lovers of the family.

My little cousin is the epitome of great genes. My uncle and aunt both has larger than usual eyes and that came up nicely on her, with a lovely fair rosy complexion. She's gonna be a gorgeous woman one day.

My BF pissed me off major when he hung up on me and turned off his phone again, but for once, he actually turned it on after 5 mins and called me back. So everything's fine and dandy. If only he knew how easy it can be to solve matters, instead of leaving me to cry and sulk the whole night. LOVE HIM.

I want that Mulberry purple ostrich. I don't know why I'm so into ostriches lately. Thinking of selling the Gucci messenger meant for my brother but he didn't want since I'm not a fan of sling bags but getting 400 for a 900 bag used less than half a year doesn't seem worth it somehow.

Oh and I so need to catch up on my driving. I've been slacking for months now.

; bu tong

I'm going to quit smoking soon.

I know, I've said it a million times but lately the only times I need to smoke are when I wake up, after I eat and before I sleep. And when I'm bored. Think it's due to the training when I live over at the SO's, only sneaky sneaky or when we're out.

Xmas is round the corner. Celebrating the second one with the BF this year. Pretty dope huh. We're doing fine, sometimes we fight but we always make up. Our common hot temper, his white lies (okay, just one stupid small lie which bugged the hell out of me), my insecurities. The best part is when I snuggle in his arms before sleeping, inhaling the familiar scent of him and the comforter that's when I feel that no matter how screwed life can get, things are gonna be okay.

; blah

I just realised I have really dumb titles.

And I need a new blog skin. This ugly thing is so getting to me.

; glazed eyes

I get a headache when I use the computer these days. Maybe it's cos my moniter is SHIT compared to the boyfriend's 21 inch one.

Bla bla byebye.

; brain freeze

I feel like changing my hair color.

This 'matt brown' is getting on my nerves, especially with a touch of my roots showing. I know I should just go back to black, but black's so.. boring.

And I went red this year already, and Touche to some of you out there but hell am I never going to go blonde again.

And I think I can safely say that to pink, blue and all the kickass colours I use to do.

Was thinking chocolate. Looks black, but isn't black..?

I know, an entire entry on hair color. Don't mind me.

; plasma telly

Dreams can be so desperately vivid.

Reunion after four years, hands are tied, hearts not free.

R + J Forever. :)

; one sweet day

One of the reasons why I avoided (okay, avoid is too strong a word, more like stepped aside) my friends is because I'm weary of the inevitable drama that will happen sometime or other in even the strongest of friendships which hurts me like hell.

Recently I've came to miss them, the good parts of comfort and a shoulder to lean on. Or simply having regular people to hang out with.

But reading a friend's blog, and her severe conflict with her best friend reinforce my theory that the bad parts more often outweighs the good ones.

And now drama is within my very family.

My brother is prime suspect for robbery cos he fits the description of being a certain height and having a tattooed arm. We found the fucker, but I'm still not sure reporting him is the best idea, what if the police turns around and interrogates me and I slip up or something?

My younger brother has skipped two consecutive days of school, lied that he was going to the shop and ended up somewhere else till late at night, and today, left goodbye you can contact me at yada yada number letters to me, my brother and my cousin.

My mother is a psychotic wreck who gave me the first couple of slaps in my life for being 'rude to her' when she was asking me about my brother. Ha. She thinks he didn't really struck 4d but got the money from robbery. And she didn't ask HIM anything, she asked ME. And guessed who bore the brunt of her wrath? Fucking bitch.

My dad had to stuggle with her, half strangle her, and yell at her for taking out her unhappiness on a child (me) and she threatened to commit suicide like a mad cow.

Nutcases I swear.

; dad's morning exercise

Haven't slept a wink and I'm heading off to work in a few (giving up my sleep for hanging out at shop equates work in my book hey) cos Bryan's grandma passed away and Nic's down with some.. I don't know, just sick or something?

I swear, our common fondness of the decadent act that gambling is was and can very possibly still prove to be the bane of my entire family.

Take my brother. He just won 4d and $350 at TMK's mass the night before last remember? Well last night he bloody lost $800 at the same mass. Brrrr. The queer and scary thing is, the $800 seems so insignificant compared to the 2grand debt he chalked up the other time, so neither of us are very affected by this loss. Just took it as, money come, money go you know? Bloody hell, now that I think of it $800 is a reasonable sum of money.

It's just like my Dad said, we gotta watch it cos we've got this gambling-addict gene in our blood or something.

I am so sick of living in a tiny house. True, I'd probably miss sharing a room with the bro after 18 years but still. I wanted to exercise the other day and I was thinking damn I used to have the treadmill the tricycle and some weird stepping up and down thingy in my house. I wanted to play a game of billards and I remembered damn I used to have the bloody table in my house. For fuck's sake my DVD and Kbox system is down! The computer's in the living room, so's the SCV. I mean, what's the point of getting most of the channels only to have the goddamn box in the living room?! NO AIR CON! We wanted to get a pool table but it didn't fit into the tiny shophouse and now we've rented it out so.

SIAN AH.

; drumbeats

I finally know what Sel means by buying 4d for a hope.

In the past month, my brother struck 4d twice already! And he would've won another 2 times if he bought system 7! But it's good enough already yo,

Like I kinda believe there is a God out of all this. He has a 2k debt, so he wins some money. I don't really need the money, so I didn't win. Lol but quite fun anticipating the results every weds and weekends.