; my love my fate

I am not a forgiving person, oh please spare me the 'magnanimity is a virtue' backlash, I really couldn't care less.

Fucked up people deserve what they get, karma's the best bitch out there who proves that justice, even if only occasionally, does exist.

Haha. I gloat and rub my hands in glee over your unhappiness, know that? :D

Anyways,

the Boyfriend's in platoon J, and he very sweetly texted me 'J for Jovina!' and my acquaintance's man's in the same platoon, AND the same section as well. HAHA.

The bunch of us yak so much about our boys all the time that we wondered whether they actually know each other, and once or twice we hit jackpot and we get all giggly and excited about it. Some female hormone thing, no doubt.

We had our 1st year anniversary the day before he booked in. Here's a self amusement snippet to share,

'Baby can I have a Tiffany & Co. ring?' (Straight to the point, ask and you shall get says the Lord)

'Okay.'

'Huh. You're not even gonna ask how much it's gonna cost you?'

'What for? Knowing you it's bound to cost no less than a bomb in my pocket.'


HEHEHE. I love having a boyfriend that knows me so well.

; the 16th

Are you, modern 21st century homo sapien, aware that, contrary to popular belief, the traditional Mid Autumn (thanks to Mavis I know the correct term is neither Mooncake nor Lantern) Festival -fifteen day of the eighth month on the lunar calendar, does not play host to the perfect orb of a moon?

It is in fact, today, the 16th that the celestial body forms an immaculate, precise sphere of molten gold. Proudly beaming upon us all, so regally, so gloriously.

"You are no sun, but you are the moon. You do not allow bathing upon your rays, but basking upon your glow. The moon belongs not to the light, to darkness instead, but regardless it is still beautiful. Remember that."

Thank you.

; wheeeee

I am like, so sorry I'm sounding off sucha shallow-ist at heart, but tell me.

HOW CAN YOU NOT HAVE A LOVE HATE RELATIONSHIP WITH VICTORIA BECKHAM?

100 and counting Hermes bags I tell you. Bloody hell.

My envy threshold erupted the moment I saw that pristine white Birkin in the Purse blog. I'd always major dig white bags and it is to DIE FOR I tell you.

You see. I couldn't be bothered to blog when I wanted to whine about my BF's first day in Sispec but here I am hating VB down to her Christian Louboutin's.

I'm so superficial I wanna stab myself. Oh bye.

; imagine 10 of you

So I was fooling around on Imeem when I thought of that song and oh so naturally HY came to mind. After all, he was the one who introduced this song we all came to love that particular day at JE Kbox with his green jacket on me and him freezing half to death.

So I Friendster-ed him, and he's with a Cancer girl just like I always knew he would. Taurians complements Cancerians like how Shakira's hips sway in Hips Don't Lie, asi es perfecto. Just not me.

I'm not bitter, really. And unlike Longda, I wasn't shocked by his saccherine sweet gestures on his girl's birthday. Rose petals scattered on the bed forming a perfect heart with an I-love-you in the middle. That spells HY all over it.

I realise I always blog heavy. Don't be mistaken. Life is just cruising, it's just that I'm too lazy on those breezy days. Ah well.

; a walk to remember

So,

I've had this dreadful flu from last week, and just yesterday I developed a nasty cough which aggravated my barely healed, still tender throat. Know why, know why?

Courtesy of the boyfriend. I just don't get why he point black refuses to see the doc. "I already know what's wrong with me, I'll just take medication, why waste the money?" Yada yada, my foot. Yeah, not waste money but waste my mom's. Thanks to him, HELLO AGAIN FLU & SORETHROAT! JOIN THE CLUB, COUGH! I must have blew/spat through an entire tree's worth of tissue papers already.

And I usually am a big dog lover but his dog is really, getting to me. The aircon's on but we can't close the door cos the bloody creature can't make up it's mind whether it wants to stay in or out. AND it chomped on ALL my medication so I have like, nada left.

I should be all christian and sympathetic after watching A Walk to Remember but somehow, I can't manage it.

; when you're gone

Fuck no smoking cos my throat can't take it. I deserve a break.

Did I mention I do a pretty good Avril impersonation? Honest! Just as whiny and angst-fueled.

I heard the Pieces don't fit in song on Rach's blog, dope shit.

Guess what, I'm goddamn miserable and I only have my dog for comfort.

And the doctor today remembered me from my anti depressants days and he talked to me about youth being gone in a flash and him being 2/3s of his life closer to his grave. I just noticed his hair was tied up in a little ponytail.

Okay the fag made me feel worst than ever. I guess that's what being sick with no food and medicine in your stomach does to you.

Fuck it.

; sick

Remember how ill you felt, how weak and fatigue when you're down with a fever, flu and a swelling throat to boot?

Throw in a lying boyfriend of a year and whoopee, that makes up the worst day of my life.

; sipping soup

I just really really want a pair of Jimmy Choos.

In LiuXingHuaYuan, Jing was going on about how everyone needs a good pair of shoes to transport them all over the world.

I need a pair of Jimmies to do that.

OH PLEASE LET ME GET A PAIR OF JIMMIES THOUGH I STILL CAN'T JUSTIFY THROWING A GRAND ON A SHOE WHICH IS GONNA GET DIRTY ANYWAY.

Christian Louboutin will be fine, beggers can't be choosers right?!

OH PLEASE OH PLEASE OH PLEASE.

; ai tai yuan

I don't know why I'm feeling so goddamn irritable right now.

The BF's POPing today, and I'm not going cos he only has two tickets and both parents want to attend so too bad for me. Oh well, it's not that I bother since the weather's so fucking hot anyway.

I absolutely loathe it when the house phone rings cos everyone has to rush to the living room to answer since thanks to the cousin and the younger brother's inconsideration months back every phone is confiscated and the dad's still safekeeping them.

Okay wish me luck I don't wanna jinx anything so keeping my mouth shut for the time being.

; x files

So my girl's shedding, and whenever I'm home I'm in the perpetual state of being covered in fur all over.

But I don't care, she still comes on the bed anyway. Until I next change my bedsheets that is.

I'm such a telly addict, I can sit in front on the tee and watch shows for hours, especially with the great new SCV channels we signed up for.

And I'm rereading the shoppaholic series. I so love Becky Bloomwood. :D

; stranger

Hilary Duff is so goddamn hot in the video, I know, I can't believe I'm saying that.


Nobody believes me when I tell them that you're out of your mind. Nobody believes me when I tell them that there's so much to hide. You treat me like a queen when we go out, wanna show everyone what our love's about. All wrapped up in me whenever there is a crowd, but when no one's around,

There's no kindness in your eyes. The way you look at me it's just not right. And I can tell you what's going on this time, there's a stranger in my life. You're not the person that I once knew. Are you scared to let them know it's you? If they could only see you like I do, then they would see a stranger too.

Did I ever do anything that was this cruel to you? Did I ever make you wonder who was standing in the room? You made yourself look perfect in every way, so when this goes down I'm the one who will be blamed. Your plan is working so you can just walk away. Baby, your secret's safe.

Such a long way back, from this place that we were at. When I think of all the time I've wasted, I could cry.

; next life

The world may think I'm worrying over nothing, that I'm generally being the mistrustful, over paranoid pipsqueak of a person that I am, but I know better.

My intuition, rarely, you could say never, misses too far off it's mark.

I can't believe it's happening again.

Question is, what do I do now?

; hey there delilah

I love this song. It's been my ringtone for a few months now. And I can't resist the dig, way before Perfect10 started playing it.

Reminds me of Clarissa, Max and myself at Cine before the customary cosmopolitan (think 10 different nationalities) 'drink till you drop with no less than thirty and 50 - 60 bottles of Tiger and if you're lucky you'll see Bart high on drugs and Boy with a bin over his head running full circle around Newton'.

Talked to her the other day. She's miserable, because of the Baked one (Baker la, duh) Like Matt once said, Clar's really One Love, man. I can't remember how many men I've switched since mid05, from Shawn to my current SO. We were singing Hey there Delilah really loudly at the railings and Qianqian and what's her name, the hottest China girl in school, I think it's Si Si or something, said Hi and what I was doing and Max thought I was speaking Japanese instead of Mandarin cos I could do the China accent perfecto.

Anyways, my brother just chalked up a 2058 gambling debt. I would say Good luck, have fun but since he's my brother all I can give is, Godspeed.

; jolene's memes

Play your music on shuffle and just whack!

How will you feel tomorrow?
crazy mary

Something that impresses you.
how six songs collide

What will I do tomorrow?
everything i do (i do it for you)

What is your sex life like?
leaving on a jetplane

Your dream lover.
best thing you never had

Am I going to find food in the kitchen?
when you're gone

If I were president, what would I do?
lying is the most fun a girl can have without taking her clothes off

What will your grandkids be like?
whole again

I see lizards everywhere in this house. Small ones which are actually kinda cute. But this one's a dirty brown so it's gross.

; HORRORscopes

The dark side of the stars.


Aries (Mar 21 - Apr 20) (rei ;D)
A warrior at heart, you thrive on challenges and fights. If there aren't any strife and dramas, you are tempted to stir things up, just to keep yourself happy. You are also rather intolerant of mistakes and don't have patience for weakness or failings in others. And sometimes, you can be quite a snob as well, you like to be seen at the right places or wear the right clothes. And you're also prone to bossiness. Your restless nature may make you quit a project suddenly if you can't sustain the interest.

Advice: Get off your high horse and pay your dues before people will accept you. Learn to be more tolerant of others and try to see the other person's side of the story. If you believe in what you do, you can move mountains.


Taurus (Apr 21 - May 20) (mich ;D)
You are stubborn and like to hold on to things, not wanting to let go of anything or anyone. You are slow to anger, but when you do get worked up to a rage - everyone step aside! You also have a selfish streak and can be quite sneaky as well. And although people may see you as helpful and agreeable, you sometimes have an inner struggle wanting the approval of others while sticking to your own opinions. You also tend to be suspicious of others and question their motives.

Advice: Stop being mean and try to be nice. Learn to forgive and let go of your past disappointments. Learn from your mistakes and have faith in yourself and others as well.


Gemini (May 21 - Jun 21) (brother/boyfriend ;D)
Your devil-may-care attitude sometimes could bringharm to yourself - you tend to live on the edge sometimes. Many of you believe that you don't deserve success, somehow feeling guilty for it.You may give others too much of yourself sometimes that you lose yourself. You may be prone to suppressing emotions as well. And at times that makes it difficult for you to accept affection and love.

Advice: Work at listening to others and don't be tempted to try dare devil stunts all the time. And try doing something for yourself and once in a while, in between, doing favors for others. You're human, after all.


Cancer (Jun 22 - Jul 22) (me!!!)
You can get carried away with emotions - your anger is overwhelming and your sadness can depress all those around you. You're also ultra-sensitive to other people's emotions and are affected by these as well. You tend to react before you think and then brood about what you may have done or said wrong. You are also prone to periods of morbidity, thinking dark thoughts. Feelings of insecurity creep in now and then, making you snappish or else you try to win the approval of everyone at your expense.

Advice: Accept that you are hypersensitive to emotions and work with yours. Go with the flow and by doing the right thing, you set an example for others. Work with others and this will help build your confidence and open you up.


Leo (Jul 23 - Aug 22) (wanwin ;D)
On the rare occasion you lose your temper, you can turn into a savage beast. You seem to need an audience as well, to help boost your confidence and ego, sometimes. Other times, you get caught up in the outward dramas of your life that you neglect what you're feeling inside. This results in a delayed reaction when emotions sneak up on you and you get hit with a whammy. You also tend to be proud and aggressive, cloaking these with your charm. When things don't go your way, you get impatient and may even throw a tantrum.

Advice: Learn to spend some time alone with yourself and get to know yourself better. And learn to experience your emotions at the moment, don't store them up for another time. And know that not all means justify the ends.


Virgo (Aug 23 - Sep 22) (raes ;D)
You have a martyr complex, feeling that you were put on this earth to do good work and not receive any credit for it. You tend to be ultracritical of yourself and others and you also worry about things that are beyond your control. A little pessimistic sometimes,you tend to be an intellectual snob. You bottle up all your insecurities and fears, and hesitate to reach out for help. And once in a while, you become a busybody - that's when you also feelresponsible for other people's problems.

Advice: Modesty has its own limits - take credit for your efforts. Give yourself a break and know that you do not have to be successful in everything you do. Keep focused and don't get tangled in other people's affairs too often.


Libra (Sep 23 - Oct 23) (can't think of anyone atm)
Your inability to reach a decision in matters of personal action are legendary. You like to weigh all the alternatives and hear every side of an argument but this may take time and opportunities may pass you by because of it. You also like to expand energy on people who may not deserve it - You want to help the underdog. You are also sensitive to criticism and may take mild statements of fact very personally.

Advice: Follow your instincts and act on them - stop sitting on fences. Don't blindly trust people, learn to be a little more discriminating in your offers of help. Learn to think for yourself and don't be swayed by persuasive tongues.


Scorpio (Oct 24 - Nov 21) (ALWIN OMG)
You have a revengeful streak and a long memory for past hurts. Sometimes you're downright spiteful. When you suffer, you make sure others suffer along with you. Sometimes, you may even use deception to get what you want and to influence others to stay out of your way. You may even believe these untruths and unrealistic fears will grow on you. Once in a while, you may come across someone that just rubs you on the wrong side for no apparent reason and you make it your mission to bury him or her.

Advice: Fight the negative emotions that arise in you, and resentment will not sour your life. Don't' give into temptation to tell lies, learn to conquer your strong tendency towards revenge and things will fall into place for you.


Sagittarius (Leonard ;D)

You've got a big mouth and unwittingly hurt an insult people with it. You can even go to utter strangers and give unsolicited advice and comments. You also seem to enjoy verbal duels with others whenever you can. And you sure can make sore losers, even suspecting foul play if things don't go your way. You have a knack for confrontation and you can't resist being sarcastic. You also don't think too much of many people, because you have a mild superiority complex. Vanity is also a trait in many of you.

Advice: Learn with whom you can be frank otherwise keep your comments to yourself. Discretion is the better part of valour. Curb your cockiness, and you can combine it with your concern for serious issues, aiding in your search for truth.


Capricorn (Dec 22 - Jan 19) (Can't think of anyone atm)
You are rather materialistic and it is fueled by your fears of financial disaster. This makes you complain about monetary woes, irritating many with your obnoxious attitude. You can also be a social climber, manipulating your way up the ladder; name-dropping all the way to the top. Once in a while, you'll have morbid thoughts about Death, something that scares you because you have no control over it. You tend to be obsessive about your mortality sometimes.

Advice: Stop worrying about losing money, and you'd rid yourself of unfounded nightmares. Stop manipulating others and you'll be free to concentrate on attaining your goals. Get rid of your phobias and you'll be able to relax more and enjoy yourself.


Aquarius (Jan 20 - Feb 18) (Terence ;D)
You tend to be too idealistic and naive sometimes. Practicality gets thrown out of the window by you many times. Cool and aloof, you rarely want to deal with deep emotions. You like to give advice but don't like to receive it. And ideas and inspirations that you sometimes neglect or follow through with them are constantly bombarding you. Or else you are constantly shifting focus, giving people the idea that you are a flake with no staying power.

Advice: Take time to explore your private feelings. Not all people see things your way. And just because you come up with ideas, don't expect other people to do all the work for you. Learn to trust people and accept advice.


Pisces (Feb 19 - Mar 20) (Sherrie RIP)
You are an escapist - you have this knack of avoiding issues if they seem unpleasant. You delve into past memories to escape your present woes. There is also a tendency towards alcoholism and even drug abuse - you are on a search for some kind of 'high'. You also love to flirt and too much of it may send the wrong, dangerous signals out to other people. Once in a while, a dark mood will descend on you and you become rather unsociable and withdrawn.

Advice: Trust your instincts, but also be in control of your perceptions. Whenever the escapist tendency hits you, join a seminar or get a pep talk from a friend to get your perspective right.


I am so goddamn nice for forgoing my yummy beach rd prawn noodles and deleting all the >>> to faciliate your reading thus enhancing your pleasure button. Gimme a holla if you think it's freakishly accurate :D I gave one name I felt most ept for that horoscope lol.

; garden echoes

I should just bundle up all cocoon like and hibernate, since every time I step outta my door means bidding farewell to two crisp blue notes. I am a doing-nothing allowance begger after all, getting a meagre amount of half a grand a month.

My cousin has been giving very non-subtle hints, no I toned it down, she is actually blatently asking for a birthday gift. Haha. Since she got me a nice River Island wallet on mine, I'm reciprocating with a Guess one on hers (no I'm not so thoughtful as you might have guessed, she asked for it la hahaha)

Had dinner with Munwei yesterday. He's kinda cute and funny. Poor guy, at least he's getting weary of the bitch like he should.

The boyfriend amused me no end when I found the receipt of some 280bucks dinner we had a month or so ago. He wants to LAMINATE it, which made me burst into hearty guffaws unladylike as it might be. What a miser. I guess I should forget about the French restaurant Rei suggested.