WHY oh WHY are all the guys in my life so into victimizing themselves?
And bitching about me on their Friendsters, Msn nicknames, etc.
Blame the victim, sure, push it all to me.
I'M THE GODDAMN LOSER SUFFERING FROM BEING PLAYED OUT.
ME OKAY?!
I'M THE GODDAMN VICTIM.
Monday, March 31, 2008
; drive me crazy
Reminisce.
August17, 2006. Post title, *Lullaby.
It's pretty damn hard to believe, that after almost 2 years, he's still the one who can make my heart beat faster, and slower, all at the same time.
So beautiful it's tragic.
And crap, I realised my standard of writing has deteriorated drastically. How did I come up with those proses in the past?
August17, 2006. Post title, *Lullaby.
It's pretty damn hard to believe, that after almost 2 years, he's still the one who can make my heart beat faster, and slower, all at the same time.
So beautiful it's tragic.
And crap, I realised my standard of writing has deteriorated drastically. How did I come up with those proses in the past?
Saturday, March 29, 2008
; fall in love tonight under the orange county sky
I must be getting old,
Cos those mind games I used to indulge and even excel in, less than a week and they're wearing me out, bringing me down.
I wish I can, for the first bloody time in my life, love someone wholeheartedly, give him my all - no strings attached. Without paranoia about him using me for whatever reasons, or fear of loss, hurt and pain.
If I love again, I don't wanna hold back. But then, once again,
If I love, I'll only be hurting as much as I love.
Cos those mind games I used to indulge and even excel in, less than a week and they're wearing me out, bringing me down.
I wish I can, for the first bloody time in my life, love someone wholeheartedly, give him my all - no strings attached. Without paranoia about him using me for whatever reasons, or fear of loss, hurt and pain.
If I love again, I don't wanna hold back. But then, once again,
If I love, I'll only be hurting as much as I love.
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