I'm sorry, I can't be perfect.
But I'm trying..
Thursday, November 30, 2006
Wednesday, November 29, 2006
; dance with my father
Rebonded my hair. Straight is an understatement, $175 is a lil high considering the rebonding rates these days, but I can't get over what that nice but undoubtedly noobish hairdresser did to my fringe.. the bangs look.. weird. Guess I gotta improvise them when I dye my hair next week.
Removed the braces. Will be on retainer from next week onwards for bout half a year I think. Which is kinda sickening, and inconvenient cos I gotta take them off when I eat and brush my teeth. Which means before eating I gotta go to the toilet and remove them which is kinda gross, isn't it?
Besides that I look pretty much the same I guess. Gained a hefty 5-6 kgs which means I'm roughly half the size of a baby killer whale.
Considering everything, life should be pretty good these days. But leave it to me to soak up the lil miseries and forget the good. I miss Mich. I miss Raes. I miss Vic. I miss Josh. I miss Mickster. I miss Jing Ammy Fenny Sooin Pris. I miss Ervin Shawn Lei Jekong. I miss Matt. I miss Peiling Lingwei Von Mel. I miss Esther and Linin. I miss Yuru Lydia Deb. I miss Edwin Yongcheng Mengwee. And I can go on and on but forget it already.
My brother decided not to run away and to head off to court after all. Which is what I deem the right thing to do, but the repercussions? Perhaps 2 or 3 years in the Boys' home. Everyone who knows me well knows how protective and how close I am to my brother. So yeah, try to imagine how fucked up I feel. And being much poorer than I once was, I can't afford to spoil and pamper him with money or stuff. I can't even ensure his meals ffs. Sometimes I hate myself for being so useless.
I can only hope and pray that all goes well and he'll be sentenced with tagging or an extended probation which are both unlikely. I can't attend his court, juvenile court's only for the parents which is a screwed up rule if you ask me. Not to crowd the courtroom with noisy kids I can understand but what about family?
back when i was a child, before life removed all the innocence, my father would lift me high, and dance with my mother my brother and me and then. spin us around till we fell asleep. then up the stairs they would carry us, and i knew for sure i was loved.
if i could get another chance, another walk, another dance with them, i'd play a song tt would never ever end. how i'd love love love t dance with my family again.
Removed the braces. Will be on retainer from next week onwards for bout half a year I think. Which is kinda sickening, and inconvenient cos I gotta take them off when I eat and brush my teeth. Which means before eating I gotta go to the toilet and remove them which is kinda gross, isn't it?
Besides that I look pretty much the same I guess. Gained a hefty 5-6 kgs which means I'm roughly half the size of a baby killer whale.
Considering everything, life should be pretty good these days. But leave it to me to soak up the lil miseries and forget the good. I miss Mich. I miss Raes. I miss Vic. I miss Josh. I miss Mickster. I miss Jing Ammy Fenny Sooin Pris. I miss Ervin Shawn Lei Jekong. I miss Matt. I miss Peiling Lingwei Von Mel. I miss Esther and Linin. I miss Yuru Lydia Deb. I miss Edwin Yongcheng Mengwee. And I can go on and on but forget it already.
My brother decided not to run away and to head off to court after all. Which is what I deem the right thing to do, but the repercussions? Perhaps 2 or 3 years in the Boys' home. Everyone who knows me well knows how protective and how close I am to my brother. So yeah, try to imagine how fucked up I feel. And being much poorer than I once was, I can't afford to spoil and pamper him with money or stuff. I can't even ensure his meals ffs. Sometimes I hate myself for being so useless.
I can only hope and pray that all goes well and he'll be sentenced with tagging or an extended probation which are both unlikely. I can't attend his court, juvenile court's only for the parents which is a screwed up rule if you ask me. Not to crowd the courtroom with noisy kids I can understand but what about family?
back when i was a child, before life removed all the innocence, my father would lift me high, and dance with my mother my brother and me and then. spin us around till we fell asleep. then up the stairs they would carry us, and i knew for sure i was loved.
if i could get another chance, another walk, another dance with them, i'd play a song tt would never ever end. how i'd love love love t dance with my family again.
Monday, November 27, 2006
; hey there delilah
Guess who's back?
Okay umm a lil tired so I'll just type whatever comes to mind.. not that I have to explain what I blog or not blog but still! Hahaha.
Erik's coming back in less than a month! Yay! And Michie I miss you babe whassup with the emo emo post? Never fear, Jov is back (here rhymes more hoh hehehehe)
Bro's court review in Weds. Sigh. High chance of him sent to boys' home for a couple of years.. =( he wants to abscond, which is a pretty immature and dumb idea but I can't really blame him I guess.. Will support his decision whatever it is, keeping my fingers crossed that all will go fine and dandy.
Dad was expecting me to return him his RM the miser! And he was like, how can you hit on your dad's money.. GOSH! Mr I gave you only 330 RM! Yeah but he was so sweet la haha in fact Mom was pretty cutish silly too.
Trip was okay, love the weather but in my weakened state sometimes it got too cold for me to take. We were hanging out amongst mist, or rather clouds, according to Calv. Hmm. Theme park was okay too, Calv was a ball-less faggot but what else did you expect from Angel boy. LOL. Was babbling in the bus on the way home, I remembered Angel was the comment I uttered when I first saw his pic.
Ca|v-- & B|tCh--. In case you guys are wondering, that was Calv and Ww's IRC nicks 3 or 4 years ago hahaha.
Had a major headache on the way back. =( My head hurts now just thinking of it. And my period came right bang on Friday. Sheesh the sheer wrong timing again. Suffered from hardcore PMS throughout, which kinda ruined my mood, was an APG HAHAHA (attitude problem girl which btw is the nickname of an acquaintance of mine) - difficult and nasty and altogether a selfish spoilt brat this weekend, but thankfully baby took it all in his stride, though I'm sure I upsetted him and even hurt his feelings more than a couple of times. Thank you for taking such good care of me when I was feeling unwell and everything baby, I'm sorry for snapping at you so often. Love you many many!
Yawnsie I'm tired and my brother and his friends hanging downstairs at the bball court are making hell lotta noise, I can hear laughter and chatter all the way from the 7th floor. Oh yes my dog was so sweet too she came bounding towards me and stuck to me throughout since I came home but I bundled her off my lap and off to her bed. Hehehe.
Okay umm a lil tired so I'll just type whatever comes to mind.. not that I have to explain what I blog or not blog but still! Hahaha.
Erik's coming back in less than a month! Yay! And Michie I miss you babe whassup with the emo emo post? Never fear, Jov is back (here rhymes more hoh hehehehe)
Bro's court review in Weds. Sigh. High chance of him sent to boys' home for a couple of years.. =( he wants to abscond, which is a pretty immature and dumb idea but I can't really blame him I guess.. Will support his decision whatever it is, keeping my fingers crossed that all will go fine and dandy.
Dad was expecting me to return him his RM the miser! And he was like, how can you hit on your dad's money.. GOSH! Mr I gave you only 330 RM! Yeah but he was so sweet la haha in fact Mom was pretty cutish silly too.
Trip was okay, love the weather but in my weakened state sometimes it got too cold for me to take. We were hanging out amongst mist, or rather clouds, according to Calv. Hmm. Theme park was okay too, Calv was a ball-less faggot but what else did you expect from Angel boy. LOL. Was babbling in the bus on the way home, I remembered Angel was the comment I uttered when I first saw his pic.
Ca|v-- & B|tCh--. In case you guys are wondering, that was Calv and Ww's IRC nicks 3 or 4 years ago hahaha.
Had a major headache on the way back. =( My head hurts now just thinking of it. And my period came right bang on Friday. Sheesh the sheer wrong timing again. Suffered from hardcore PMS throughout, which kinda ruined my mood, was an APG HAHAHA (attitude problem girl which btw is the nickname of an acquaintance of mine) - difficult and nasty and altogether a selfish spoilt brat this weekend, but thankfully baby took it all in his stride, though I'm sure I upsetted him and even hurt his feelings more than a couple of times. Thank you for taking such good care of me when I was feeling unwell and everything baby, I'm sorry for snapping at you so often. Love you many many!
Yawnsie I'm tired and my brother and his friends hanging downstairs at the bball court are making hell lotta noise, I can hear laughter and chatter all the way from the 7th floor. Oh yes my dog was so sweet too she came bounding towards me and stuck to me throughout since I came home but I bundled her off my lap and off to her bed. Hehehe.
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